Preparing for my first Level I Attunement

[sbparham]

Reasoning
My entire adult life I have been searching for something. Something that I knew was my gift from God and purpose. I've searched to exhaustion. I found rest in Jesus Christ when I surrendered my soul in 2001. A bottomless pit was plugged. It was then that I found scripture that spoke to me personally, yet I had no idea the meaning. I used Yoga to get my energetic body and overactive mind calm enough to meditate. It was during meditation that I heard the word, "Reiki". At the time I didn't really know what it truly was, I just knew it was a real word. I was eventually led to David, who laid the truth out in front of me; allowing me to take my own steps. Thank you, David, for helping me discover the worth of my Self.

Experiences
Ever since I was a child I've been able to see colored dots in the dark. They combine to make a grid and flash and turn until I pass through them. I have absolutely no idea what they are...yet.

Since 1997 I have been able to see the tiny white dots darting around in the sky (blue, rain, or clouds). And when I pay close attention, I could see them elsewhere. Only recently have I learned that others have seen them too and they're not an optical illusion. I used to pretend they were spirit exchanges coming and going between Heaven and Earth. I say this because I first starting seeing them outside airplane windows and I would see much more over big cities than I would see over the desert or plains. My mind told me one thing; my brain another.

Since 2008 I have been able to see what I light-heartedly call highlighter-yellow coming in waves when I meditated with my eyes open. It always made me happy that I was able to see something different than my busy, stressed-out world. I would also see big circles of dark purple come waving in too.

Encounters
When I surrendered my soul to Jesus Christ, I took my first breath of true spiritual life. All that I had tried up until then was beating around the bush. I realized that I had been suffocating my entire life. My Self felt like a dove being released from clinched, strangling hands. He and I met often at the beach and watched the tides (FYI, I am afraid of water). This was my happy place. One day, years later, I was led out of sitting. Jesus took my hand and had me stand. As the days and weeks progressed, I was led to the water, wading in the water, then walking into the ocean. I was safe and walk with Him without fear into this chaos.

The kindest living soul I had ever met is Bobby Drinnon. Just the sound of his voice was what I would say is the kindest voice you would ever hear. He is an intuitive in TN, who helped me when my world was so bleak that his telling of a light at the end of the tunnel kept me hanging on. It was through him that I learned of my spirit guide who stands at my left shoulder.

Surfing google to find a Reiki center for a family member who lives in a different state than me, I happened across www.thereikiguy.com. The stories told and words spoken on the website resonated to my Self. I felt like a best friend had written the words. I was compelled to schedule a session just to see what would happen. I needed some guidance anyways, so, why not? When I heard David's voice, I heard a spiritually kind voice again. A spoken kindness I thought only Bobby Drinnon possessed. I am going on a journey and I know that David has the map and is my guide.

Direction
I don't know why God chose me for this; I only know that He did.

"I must work the works of him that sent me."
John 9:4

[sbparham]

I have just had my Level I attunement. The experience itself was different from any meditation session I've ever experiences. Notables are as follows:
During

With eyes open, the yellow waves I usually see didn't wave at all. It permeated the ceiling, walls, everything in sight.
The little white dots were everywhere.
My eyes teared for the first time during meditation.
With eyes closed, the black with waves of purple I usually see didn't remain black. It all started to turn purple with waves of light blue, then after a while, waves of white.
I was aware of heart beats and was grateful for this organ's sole purpose in my life.
I felt numb, but not in a physical sense. I can't find a word to capture where I was numb other than to say my Self was numb.
I smelled nothing.
I heard the music dissolve and could hear noise outside the house as daily life for those people moved along. I loved them regardless of their path.

After

Very close to my body is a little wind of sorts. I feel things through the wind first before actually making contact.
Perceptions such as sight, sound, etc...is a smidge sharper. More like I notice more and appreciate more rather than them actually being stronger.
The first food after my fast was a strawberry. It appeared perfect. I could feel every seed as I washed it. And the burst of flavor was enough to make me shutter then laugh, and so I did.
My overall feeling can only be explained this way: I feel like I have a headache without the ache. When one has a headache, they feel a little disjoined from things around them and only the ache is of focus. This feeling was the disconnection like a headache, but, I didn't have a headache.

I am acclimating to my new environment now and all is happiness.

I've got some housecleaning to do in this ol' vessel of mine now. More to follow...

-Sarah